The Sun Behind the Clouds

Today's much more tiresome than yesterday, I don't know why. I never seem to get the right amount of sleep, no matter how many hours I get. Sleep seems to be another bipolar thing for me lol

It rained pretty hardcore yesterday, in the afternoon. It stopped before I had to walk home in it. The supposed bad storm didn't happen either. I didn't really think it would of. It's been mildly sunny today, not supposed to last. When does the sunshine last anyhow? Weather is so much like emotion. The sun never lasts in personal lives. Too many clouds darken too many skies. Eventually the sun never shines. At least for me it's like that. There are too many clouds in my life. Constantly dark and rainy. Happiness is inevitable, so be it. I guess you can't have it all.

I'm going back to writing again (thank god). It feels like a good distraction, just what I need, and it wraps my brain around something way off of how other things are going. I'm definately going to be picking back up on my novels, just in 1st period I was writing down some titles ideas for chapters for one of my novels. It all sounds good in my head, but I don't have alot of confidence on how it would be out there. Doesn't hurt to try. I think I'll do good, least I hope. I've got three books brewing so I can try three times lol. If none of them work, I don't think I'll give up. That's something I can't just stop. Maybe it's the only actual gift I have, that's what it feels like anyways. I don't have much of a choice for other things.
I'm also thinking of going back to fanfiction, even though I feel like a total loser in the process lol. I never really wrote much of it anyways but I started to back in maybe September and I want to continue it. I have another idea for one. I'll probably start researching the crap out of something once I decide to start. I think I research things too much, more than I actually write. It's another one of my problems, I have to know something's as perfect as I can get it, I just have to. Funerific fun, huh. If I had my own personal computer, things would be way easier then. I don't even know the next time I'll be able to type anything. Sucks that I can't in here.

Five minutes til the bell again. I need to figure out how to fix the time on here, I can't find it. It keeps saying it's like 7am or something. It's like close to 11:30am lol. Maybe it's the computer or something. The draft saves keep saying "saved at 11:17am" so I don't know.
Lo, I must go. Til the next...
peace, jinankibab

Stormy Weather

Today's been tiresome so far. Then again, which day isn't.
I'm in my 2nd period. Not really doing anything. The movie 'Changeling' is playing. It's a really good movie, go watch it lol
I wish I had more time to be in here, I only have about 15 more minutes. Gateways are this week so 1st period lasts longer, which sucks. 1st periods good but the extra time in there is boring. I can't wait til this is all done and over with.

Supposedly there's a bad storm approaching. Really sucks, I hate storms more than anything. Nothing's happening yet, and I hope nothing really does. All I'm hearing at the moment are rumors. Hopefully it'll pass.
The rain's doable though. It's been raining all month so far and some of last. It's kind of ironic though, it's very fitting for my mood. It's like it started when I've been feeling as bad as I have. It's soothing though. I like to listen to it.

On another note, I looked at phones the other day. I really like this one, it's a touch screen (i think) and it slides open to a keyboard. I really had it in mind to get that but then I looked down and saw that it was AT&T. I have verizon. >_> I'm hoping they have a similiar phone, I'm sure they would, maybe. Nonetheless, my next phone will have a keyboard lol
I need a new one soon.

I watched an interesting movie the other day called Trans-Serberian. It was crazy but good. It was like one of the kinds of movies that you would see on IFC. But watching it make me think more of Russia (the setting was russia). I've always really liked Russia in the first place, I've even been teaching myself the language. I kinda loss interest for a while but the movie brought back some of the spirit, I guess you could say. Russia is absolutely beautiful in winter, without a doubt. I soooo wanna go there in winter lol
Winter's my favorite season and it'd be so great to spend a winter in Russia, I don't care how cold it is.

But lo, that's for another day.
I only have a few minutes and my mind's going a little blank.
til next time

peace, jinankibab

The First

Well, I've decided to start blogging (again). I thought why not, it'd be good to let off my thoughts for once and I really need to. I don't expect much feedback, however. But that doesn't really matter. I guess it's the thought that counts.
But, worth a try. There's no reason not to right? :]

So here's a random question.
I'm getting updated with my cellphone this month, finally. I don't know what to really get. I kinda want an enV2, because I really want a keyboard phone. Or I'm thinking about the touch screen kind that's also a keyboard. I'm skeptical about touch screens though so I don't know.
Any suggestions?

peace, jinan kibab